Tim sent me the following email last week:
Thanks for Shut Your Monkey. I’ve been working on quieting my inner voice for 40 years mostly through meditation. I’ve added Shut Your Monkey to the list of books that have helped me over the years including Be Here Now, Ram Dass; The Power of Now, Eckhart Tolle; Experience of Insight, Joseph Goldstein; The Art of Living, William Hart; and Tibetan Book of Living and Dying, Sogyal Rinpoche.
Where your book has been extremely helpful is in discovering those nooks and crannies where my Monkey has been hiding and impersonating my voice with subtle little comments that I didn’t recognize as coming from him. So thank you.
I do have a question for you. I’ve been following you for a number of years and was especially touched by your willingness to be so open about your wife’s illness and death. I’m wondering how that inner voice was part of that experience?
Here’s what I wrote in response:
I’m so glad my new book is helpful. Thanks for letting me know. I am flattered to be in such august company.
As to the inner voice and my wife….
When Patti was first injured, we spent a lot of time looking for information. We were in a fairly narrow niche among people dealing with spinal cord injuries: 1) my wife was a woman (obviously), 2) we had a 9 month-old-child and 3) we lived in a big city and 4) she was over 30. There just weren’t many people like her (one more way Patti was special). We were in a constant quest for information about our particular situation and it was hard to come by in those early days of the Internet. So I started a bulletin board called curbcut.com and it soon became a vibrant community for sharing information and support. You can see part of an archive of it here. The discussion we had there had to be frank to be useful and it became increasingly normal and comfortable for us to tell total strangers some pretty intimate stuff in order to get useful feedback.
Similarly, when I started drawing, there was very little information and inspiration about illustrated journaling. Hannah Hinchman had a book, d.price had a zine, but otherwise not much. So I formed a community on Yahoo! that quickly grew to 4,000 members.
In both cases, I found that sharing what I was going through with other people helped me and help them. That’s why I wrote Everyday Matters and eventually A Kiss Before You Go and Shut Your Monkey too. And that’s why I have been blogging for all the years: because turning the things of my life into words and pictures helps me understand them better and sharing them with people, even strangers, makes even the worst moments seems worthwhile.
The monkey doesn’t always agree. He told me many time that my sharing was actually exploitation, that I was turning my family into fodder for my bottomless need for attention. That may be true. But so is my other point: when I turn my experiences into some sort of art, it makes my life richer and clearer to me. And when I make art, it seems natural to share it. That’s what artists and writers do.
Sharing stuff publicly hasn’t had many negative consequences beyond the whining of the monkey in my head. And it seems to help other people too.They write to tell me that I am not alone in my feelings or that my description of an experience has helped clarify it for them too.
The monkey has a lot to say about every one of my projects. He has been particularly vocal about my book/podcast/newsletter. Nonetheless, creating them has been helpful to me and hopefully to others too so I persevere over the cries of outrage in my head.
I hope that’s helpful. Thanks for asking,
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Reblogged this on Leafology and commented:
Danny responds eloquently to Tim…like he took the words right out of my mouth and heart and honed them into perfection. Sharing our stories will always encourage our “monkeys” to speak up … as if they needed encouragement! But our stories need to be told and drawn because through sharing they speak someone else’s longing. Thanks for sharing your stories, Danny. They have given me courage, lightened my day, allowed me to shed a few tears, and always, always, always, they strengthened my connection to humanity. We are all Relations, so my ancestors taught. We all belong to One Family.
So, that was surprisingly helpful, it’s just dawned on me that locally, including very locally within my family, I am ‘encouraged’ to keep things (thoughts, feelings, opinions) to myself, this is frustrating and unhealthy – I have no outlet – well now I hadn’t thought about Journaling or blogging being a possible outlet! …or possibly even the comments section of someone else’s blog!!!
Quote of the day for me is this “turning the things of my life into words and pictures helps me understand them better” Well said
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Yup. That exact quote is already written in my own journal today as an encouragement.
Everytime I’m tempted to listen to my monkey and keep quiet, I read a post like this! Thank you 🙂
This is so interesting. What I do for a living is drawing on my story (of mental health breakdown and recovery) and share it with mental health students and professionals and in doing that I often get asked about my family and have to speak for them too. I now write academic articles too about narrative storying and how that promotes recovery and understanding. Storytelling is so essential – but yes sometimes I get that monkey hissing in my ear questioning my authority to speak and to know. Yet When I stop and think about it I know, of course, from years of experience and feedback, that what I am doing is essential in building professional understanding and empathy and is highly valued. I think storying, especially in shared communities of understanding, is absolutely fundamental to human connection, support and growth.
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Keep sharing Danny…we love you and you have enriched our lives beyond measure.
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I am going to go get a cup of coffee with my wife. I want to let this information sink in, Danny this sharing of yours is priceless.
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Well done Danny, great post . Please tell your monkey to keep the noise down ’cause I am trying to catch up on all your podcasts and Australia is a long way away!
Danny, I have always admired your spirit and the way in which you ( and Patti and now Jenny) have shown the way to making sense of life and the stuff that life brings us. You have been a great inspiration to me to sketch/journal. Yes, my monkey chatters at me with all the same crap. But at the end of the day drawing gets life into bits that get us to the next day! Thanks!